‘A Man Named Scott’: Kid Cudi reveals battles with depression, coke, suicide

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On his visionary debut album, 2009’s “Man connected the Moon: The End of Day,” Kid Cudi opened up astir his “Pursuit of Happiness.” But aft years of battling depression, anxiousness and cause abuse, the influential rapper-singer recovered himself successful specified a acheronian spot that helium was contemplating termination successful 2016.

“I had conscionable started utilizing [cocaine] again, not blessed with myself that I allowed myself to spell backmost to that aft each these years,” Cudi says successful the caller Amazon Prime documentary “A Man Named Scott,” premiering Friday. “I was conscionable truly ashamed. I was suicidal, and I was astatine a spot wherever I was trying to program it. And I knew that if I didn’t spell get help, that thing woulda happened … I conscionable had to get my s—t together.”

Shia LaBeouf, Kanye West, Timothée Chalamet and Kid CudiShia LaBeouf, Kanye West and Timothée Chalamet are interviewed successful the caller Kid Cudi documentary “A Man Named Scott.”NY Post Photo Composite
Kid CudiKid Cudi’s “A Man Named Scott” documentary premieres connected Amazon Prime Friday.Courtesy of Amazon Studios

‘The cocaine sh—t frightened maine deeply. When helium started doing it, I couldn’t speech to him nary more, like, I couldn’t get to him nary more.’ 

Shia LaBeouf, connected losing interaction with Cudi during his ‘isolated’ acheronian days.

And successful an affectional Facebook station connected Oct. 4, 2016, Cudi — whose existent sanction is Scott Mescudi — revealed that helium checked himself into rehab. But it was a agelong travel to recovery for this 37-year-old artist, whose emo hip-hop has inspired everyone from his longtime collaborator Kanye West and A$AP Rocky to actors Timothée Chalamet and Shia LaBeouf — each of whom are interviewed successful “A Man Named Scott.”

After the breakout occurrence of “Man connected the Moon” — which besides featured the deed “Day ’n’ Nite” — Cudi struggled with his newfound fame. “I conscionable truly recovered it hard to beryllium happy,” helium says successful the doc. “I accomplished what I came to New York City to accomplish, but I was miserable, antheral … There would beryllium immoderate nights wherever I’d beryllium astatine the club, and I would conscionable tally retired the nine and tally for blocks, and I would hop successful a yellowish cab trying to get distant from my security.”

Kanye West and Kid CudiLongtime Kid Cudi collaborator Kanye West is featured successful the caller documentary “A Man Named Scott.”Getty Images for Belvedere

Along the mode “from being Scott to being Kid Cudi,” helium got lost. “It was a small spot of a nightmare for me, due to the fact that I wasn’t close with myself,” says Cudi. “When I would bash shows, I didn’t consciousness anything.”

Cudi utilized cocaine to header with the anxiousness that came with uncovering stardom and losing his privacy. “[Interviewers] would beryllium like, ‘Oh, erstwhile you mislaid your dada astatine 11 years old, what was that like?’ ” helium says. “And I would bash interviews with sunglasses on, and I’d beryllium connected cocaine, and I’d conscionable be, like, sitting determination answering these questions, ’cause that’s the lone mode I could speech astir worldly similar that.”

Kid Cudi discusses his battles with depression, anxiousness and cause maltreatment successful “A Man Named Scott.”Courtesy of Amazon Studios

After getting arrested successful New York successful 2010 connected charges of transgression mischief and possession of a controlled substance, Cudi had a wake-up call. “I retrieve I got retired of jail, and I was ashamed due to the fact that I grew up with 2 uncles that were addicted to crack,” helium says. “But I’m gladsome I got arrested, due to the fact that that’s erstwhile I quit. I don’t deliberation I woulda discontinue if radical didn’t find retired astir it.”

Still, helium couldn’t shingle each of his demons, and successful 2015, helium adjacent sang astir sidesplitting himself on his azygous “Confused!” Feeling “empty inside,” Cudi relapsed connected cocaine.

“People look up to me, but I’m not a blessed person, truthful a batch of the times I felt similar a fraud,” helium says, “and that’s what drove maine to the acheronian side.”

Kid CudiKid Cudi shares however helium went to rehab aft having suicidal urges successful “A Man Named Scott.”Courtesy of Amazon Studios

Cudi adjacent drove distant his BFF LaBeouf. “The cocaine sh—t frightened maine deeply,” says LaBeouf. “When helium started doing it, I couldn’t speech to him nary more, like, I couldn’t get to him nary more. He started getting isolated, helium wouldn’t respond.” 

But aft yet facing “my bulls—t” successful rehab, Cudi says, “I’m successful specified a happier spot … And knowing that I’m astatine a amended spot with me, with Scott, that I emotion myself, that I’m happy, I conscionable anticipation fans tin spot that.”

If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts oregon are experiencing a intelligence wellness crisis, telephone the 24/7 National Suicide Prevention hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or spell to SuicidePreventionLifeline.org.